Take it easy Simon. I know where you're coming from mate. It's easy to get lost in this mini world and just as easy to end up chasing the resin/plastic/lead dragon.
Some people know this, my Dad died this February, prostate cancer. I know that in order to escape from some of the loss and pain of his death I know that I hit the lead as it were. Its bizarre, because my concentration has been massively affected so as people have seen my project output has just gone through the floor but my purchases have rocketed. Fortunately though, like you, I've now gained some insight and personally I'm in a better place now.
I hope you find that place too. See u soon.
Mark